Inspiration

It's Spring.

And I live in Oregon.

The place where there are all types of cliches...

like

"if you don't like the weather - just stick around. It will change in 5 minutes"

or

"oregonians don't tan...they rust"

 

yeah, yeah, yeah

 

The reality is - we do the seasons good here.

And this time of year the clouds can be so spectacular.

They are an artist's dream come true.

Big. Fluffy. layers of colors.

Yellows, oranges, blues, grays, pinks, purples...

Gorgeous.

 

And when I look up at them and I see the sun breaking through with rays of light reflecting color,

I am reminded of God.

And it makes me want to ask some questions...

 

Like -

 

1. Why do some people get "it" while others never quite figure it out?

2. Why does everyone think that stainless water bottles are the way to go? I think they make my water taste metalic. I don't like them. I don't like them at all.

3. Why does the plant daphne, that smells so amazing, bloom for such a short period of time?

4. Why do people take so long to learn from their mistakes (myself included!)?

5. Why can't someone invent a nail polish that doesn't chip off after a day and a half?

6. Were you having a particularly good day when you came up with hummingbirds and dragongflies?

7. On the other hand...what were you thinking when you came up with cockroaches, head lice and stink bugs?

8. Who's bright idea was daylight savings time and why are we still honoring it?

9. Knees...really?

10. And wisdom teeth? Was there a purpose that we haven't figured out?

11. Why do people think it is ok to put ketchup on eggs? Or ranch dressing on a quesadilla?

12. What is the story with the loch ness monster and big foot and UFOs?

13. Am I on the right track?

14. Why does music touch my soul in a way that nothing else does?
15. Why does it seem that whenever I really want to wear my sunglasses - they aren't with me?
16. And why do all my umbrellas seem to end up at work - but they are never in my car when I need them?
17. Why does my dog only want to jump on my bed when he is wet?
18.Why do some people work to stay in our life while others don't seem to care?
19. Why can I think of all the projects I need to get done in my studio - and then when I sit down at my work table my mind goes blank?
20. Why are some people so afraid of color?
21. And lastly...I just want to say "THANKS".

 

 

 

 

 

 



Happy Birthday Daddy...

Ronald.

Ron.

Mr. Linn

Dad.

Daddy.

Grandpa.

Papa.

Doesn't matter what you call him...he has been the most influential man in my life.

My dad.

Today marks the completion of his 81st year walking around on this earth.

His birthday.

He has taught me much.

He continues to teach me much.

He is the person I still go to for advice and confirmation that I am on the right track.

There is much that I still am learning about him.

He has lived a very full life.

He has lived his life in the state of Oregon but traveled to many other states.

He loves the ocean an often played in it with us when we were children.

I have very fond memories of visitng Hawaii with him about 12 years ago and we played in the surf together again.

He spent many of his childhood days in the Tillamook Oregon Forest on the Coast where his mother was a cook for the loggers in the logging camp.

He loved the coast so much that in 1969 he and my mother bought a cabin shack that became our refuge for years to come.

The began a remodel on the cabin in the mid-70s and turned into a beautiful refuge that they enjoy to this day.

His father died when he was quite young.

He grew up as a child of the depression and has seen amazing changes throughout his life.

He always wanted to fly a plane but his eyesight prevented that.

He did however, enter the Air Force and worked on planes as a mechanic.

He met the love of his life and fell instantly.

They married when he was 20 years old...20!!!

He has remained married to the love of his life for 60 years...60!!!

Together they have had 4 children, 18 grandchildren and 3 (soon to be 4) great grandchildren.

He believes his family is his greatest legacy.

He has lived in 4 homes since he was married and worked to make each one a place of peace and love and a place that we were all proud of.

He has worked hard ..always in sales and has started a few of his own businesses.

Some did wonderful - others struggled. But he never quit.

He loves a good practical joke.

I was the recipient of many of those.

He taught his children to work hard for what they wanted and to believe in possibility.

As children, he made it clear that we were expected to contribute -

we were treated very cruely (LOL) and expected to do chores, obey curfews, and treat our mother with respect.

He taught his children that we were worth whatever we desired - but it didn't come free.

He has incredible patience.

He has a wonderful sense of compassion and selfless love.

He always has and always will put his wife (our mother) first - thereby teaching us what love really is.

He was never shy with his affection.

I do not ever remember him leaving our home or coming home after work without stopping to kiss our mother and tell her that he loved her.

He hugged and kissed his children often.

He worked long hours - often into the evening, due to the line of work he was in;

however, he attended every one of my performances when I was growing up.

He still does...

He even brought his work associates to my plays because he was so proud.

He made me feel like a princess.

He still does.

I love you daddy.

Happy Birthday!

Over the Rainbow...

I can't remember the first time I saw the movie "The Wizard of Oz".

I just remember that it was an annual event.

Of course...

I am of the era that grew up with no dvd's or big screen plasma tvs or cable television.

If we wanted to see a movie, we went to a movie theater or

we waited for it to be played on television.

If we watched it on tv, the disclaimer that it had been "edited for television" always preceded the start.

This meant that minutes had been shaved off the movie to allow for plenty of commercials.

But there were no other options, so we endured the commercial breaks.

 

The "classics" were usually broadcast once a year -

"The Ten Commandments" was always played around Easter.

Sometime in the winter, they would play "Gone With The Wind" - over two nights!

"My Fair Lady" was usually a holiday movie.

And then there was "The Wizard of Oz".

Life stopped and schedules were planned around these special movies.

The whole family gathered with large bowls of popcorn sitting in our laps.

 

And the movie about the wonderful land of Oz was always a favorite.

The music.

Dorothy and Toto.

The witch.

Glenda.

But the best part...the transition from black and white to color.

Magic.

 

I remember, when I was in my early 20's,

a local movie theater that was known for playing only "classic" movies

had a showing of "The Wizard of Oz".

On the big screen.

I went.

And the movie took on a whole new feel for me.

 

Let's face it - today's movies are much more spectacular from a technical standpoint.

My children have a hard time appreciating some of the older "classics" because they are so used to the perfection that is achieved through computer technology.

But for me, the magic of the "Oz" remains to this day.

 

One of the most enduring aspects of that movie is "the" song....

"Somewhere Over the Rainbow"...

In my humble opinion - one of the greatest songs ...EVER!

The melody.

The simplicity.

The complexity.

The message.

 

I don't know what it is about that song in particular.

But being a music person - and a music person that really appreciates great lyrics -

this one speaks to me on a deep, almost spiritual level.

The idea of a land where everything is perfect;

the feeling of possibility, of longing, of hope, of dreams...

 

The song was magical to me as a child.

As a young mother, I sang the song to my children as a lullaby.

As an adult, I have sang the song for weddings as young couples began their new life together.

I have sang the song for funerals as family members have said their last goodbyes.

As a recently seperated married woman, I sat at my piano and sang the song with tears running down my face, as a way to find solace in my new uncertain world.

And now - as a divorced woman looking to the future,

I sing the song with an eye on possibility for greater things to come.

New adventures, new dreams, new roads to travel, new destinations...

anywhere my wings will take me.

 

Birds fly over the rainbow...

and so can I.

 

 

 



the Story of the Red Boots...

The Red Boots - photo by Vicki Cane of Grace Photography

When I was in the sixth grade, boots were big.

Especially cowboy boots.

I wanted a pair and at Christmas, I put in my request.

I got a pair of boots, but they weren't what I had envisioned.

And they never really fit quite right.

I eventually grew out of them and they went away.

I had other boots here and there - but never another pair of cowboy boots.

 

Then I moved to Idaho for school and also spent some time in Montana.

There were cowboys everywhere.

And boots were worn every day as a clothing staple.

They lost their appeal to me.

Until...

the movie Footloose came out.

Remember that movie - the original?

Kevin Bacon and Lori Singer?

And Ariel, the main female character, wore those red cowboy boots.

She wore them with everything -

And I fell in love with them.

Or maybe I just fell in love with her feisty attitude, which I never could master when I was young- but the boots seemed to be her trademark - and therefore, I associated those boots with feistiness.

Yes - they were cowboy boots.

But they were RED boots!

 

I still love boots.

But I am very practical with my boots.

Basic black and brown.

No heels.

Nothing trendy or fancy -

Just basic.

And that works well.

I wear them to my day job almost every day during the colder months.

 

Late last summer, I was in the midst of dividing up assets and liabilities and preparing to be officially "single".

I felt...ok, I'll just say it...old.

I tried to appear and seem ok with the change I was in the middle of, but the reality was, I felt lost and scared and wondered how an almost fifty year old woman starts over?

Visions of the spinster aunt with her hair up in a bun sitting alone night after night started dominating my thoughts.

 

Then one day, I was looking online and I came across red cowboy boots.

My heart leaped and I got a little giddy.

I revisited the web site over and over and kept looking at them.

I had multiple arguments with myself -

These are not my style; these aren't practical; what if they don't fit; what would you wear them with; blah, blah, blah...

Then I found myself in October.

The month that final papers were to be signed and things would become "official".

I was going to be single.

No longer a "we".

I was starting over.

There were some tears.

 

And then there was a glimmer of hope.

And then there was ...

excitement.

I started recognizing that although much of my life was exactly the same...

I still got up and went to my day job; I still had to grocery shop; I still had errands to run; I still had custom orders to fill and bills to pay and a dog to walk and laundry to wash...

There was a sense of wonder and excitement at a world full of opportunity that I had never allowed myself to experience before.

There were friends to reconnect with.

There were adventures to be planned.

This was only an "end" if that is what I chose it to be...

 

Instead - I chose to see it as a new beginning!

I needed to somehow commemorate this new chapter.

Something to symbolically congratulate myself for moving forward and not wallowing in self-pity.

To reward myself for facing each new challenge head on.

A trip? An adventure? A purchase?

I began a quest for the perfect symbolic gesture...

And then...on the sidebar when I was surfing the web...the picture of the red boots.

And I knew. Instantly.

That was it!

What else would mark this change better than something I had wanted since I was young?

Something that was just enough "out of character" for me to say..."things are new and different?"

So I bought the red boots.

They arrived on my doorstep on a day when I felt completely overwhelmed.

I opened the box and they were better than I had hoped.

I slipped them on and, not only did they fit perfectly - but I felt so proud in them.

 I felt strong and empowered and ... anything but old!

 

The red boots have become a symbol to me of strength.

Of courage.

Of feistiness.

I find myself wearing them with anything and everything -

If I wake in the morning and feel a little cranky - I wear the boots.

If I know there are challenges ahead in my day - I wear the boots.

If I am going somewhere or trying something or doing something that is out of my comfort zone...

I wear the boots.

The red boots have gone to my day job, to hear live music, to meet new people, to sign my house over to new owners...

They have become a precious symbol of the power that exists in me . . .

The power that exists in each and every one of us.

 

Superheroes wear capes...

I wear the RED BOOTS!

And when I wear them - I know that I can!

 

What brings out the superhero in YOU?